mandapanda

CDC, da bombz!

2007-12-08T06:43:00.000-08:00

Alright so I am back from my mission trip to Thailand with a darker skin tone and tons of pictures which i shall upload lesiurely. The mission trip was amazingly fun; hopefully we all can go back again next year!

Otherwise, today was rather normal. Dance session and a long period of just lazing about at home. I need imperative to start writing my Christmas cards soon!

D

2007-12-02T02:59:00.000-08:00

Hello world! I am off to Thailand tomorrow, and the anticipation is building. Oh how I can't wait to bully everyone, and just enjoy God's presence in this trip.

And the company's mighty fine too!

I guess that sometimes, sacrifice is required when choosing something over the other. Giving up the taiwan international science fair, grad night performance for this mission trip was an extremely difficult choice to make; sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing.

Oh well! Gonna miss lots of people, especially avril.
and you

accidentally in love

2007-11-28T06:42:00.000-08:00

The Thailand mission trip is coming soon, I can't wait! Doing all the crazy stuff with the guys, teasing each other..its gonna be fun.

Meanwhile, IBN is the same. Except that the strawberry biscuit rolls are always mysteriously depleted by the end of the day, I WONDER WHY. Hahaha there was an interesting choice of conversation today while exiting biopolis, in the form of TOILETS. Darren and Ivan started talking about general trends observed within the male population when they use the toilets(!!), and well alot of information came out. I guess this is what happens when you talk to really intellectual people.

Anyway, im done with my report so today is my official first day for relaxation! But im awfully tired I guess I'll go sleep soon.

didn't plan on falling in love with you

2007-11-23T15:20:00.000-08:00

So there's really nothing much to say, because i've spent everyday at IBN and most days are similar. Just that the jokes, the lunches, the experiments done, are all different in their own way. It's been fantastically fun down there, I can't believe it but i actually miss that place, and the people there.

I really regret skipping dance camp to write a report, does that signal the beginning of me becoming a person with no life? Hopefully not. I really wish i'd gone for dance camp, because this dance camp im sure would have been very fun, and i miss hanging around with my ip2s.

Oh well. I have an 8 page report to complete in TWO DAYS, go me!

i miss you

my secret

2007-11-16T08:13:00.000-08:00

I GOT MY CHRISTMAS STUFF!

I just need more red baubles, green wire and a star for the top of the tree. Today's shopping was pretty awesome, my mom got this pair of sexy nude stilettos and i got new ballet flats. I'm a happy girl.

Christmas shopping was fantastic, I bought new ribbons, lots of gold glitter baubles, adorable snowmen figurines, christmas cards, the whole enchilada.

IBN was quite fun too, because the sec2's were being very hilarious, and its amazing watching them playing with the Rubik cube. They do it so fast! I can't fathom the amount of intellect required to solve Rubik cubes. And I finished the first part of my experiment, now its just getting down to writing the darned report which i have, sadly, not started upon.

xoxo

serenity

2007-11-15T04:49:00.000-08:00

So i've decided to end my impromptu hiatus.

Holidays have started, and its been two week since. Been going to IBN too, and I really love that place. Now the only students doing their attachments are secondary/jc students, and its been cool hanging out with most of them.

Its nice to enjoy the companionship with other students in the lab, laughing at random things, helping each other out (wherever possible!) and going for lunches together.

Everyone is so different, so unique in their own way, and if we've never applied to go to IBN, we'll probably never meet. Its amazing where life leads different people onto the same path, at the same time. (:

Okay enough musing. I really want to go shopping for Christmas tree ornaments! Tomorrow is supposed to be the big date to accomplish the above mentioned with my mom. But I don't think we'll get anything done, cause my brother's coming and he ABHORS Christmas shopping. We'll see.

Now, i have a report to churn out.

xoxo

dreams fade.

2007-11-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

When I was young, I wanted to be a dancer like april giangeruso.

But I guess, when we grow older, and are more aware of our limitations, then our dreams become smaller.
And eventually disappear.

I guess I'll never be good enough.

Awesome quotes!

2007-10-12T07:01:00.001-07:00

From anonymous people... (:

"Boy, keep your manhood in!"
(Cheryl shrieked at that HAHA after that no one could stop laughing during sch anthem)

"Oh please, I'd rather see muhammad with nothing on."
(HAHAHAHA nuff said)

"Ya don't you think that sounds like the clogs in my brain working?"
(its COGS. And when did brains have cogs?)

Hahaha i love the silly things we do.

put it away

2007-10-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

Today was a pretty intense day, kind of a cumulation of the whole week. But doughnuting with annushkha arthi cheryl grace gwen johnathan saniah was very relaxing, and we had tons of fun teasing our resident auntie (psst annushkha). 06IP03 is really da bombzzz. Carrying back the juice concentrate was not that fun though, it was SO HEAVY.

I've told someone what i've kept for myself for 6++ months, and lets say the response was well, what I expected. I guess i'm not really surprised, but maybe a little sad. But at least now its behind me, and hey i've got loads to look forward to.

Speaking of looking forward, I've gone and decided my subject combination, after looking at my results. I guess at least I've improved this semester and thats what that counts right? God has certainly blessed me throughly...

Avril I love you much much(!) and i'm so proud of you for improving LOADS for this ass week! I can't wait to see you get your A's for your subjects next year (:

brighter day

2007-10-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

SANIAH cartwheels down your lawn says:
maybe we can have dinner together
mandapanda! says:
like..
mandapanda! says:
like..
mandapanda! says:
like...
mandapanda! says:
A DATE???
SANIAH cartwheels down your lawn says:
if you want *wink wink
SANIAH cartwheels down your lawn says:
HAHAHAH

looking forward?

2007-10-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

Imperial College London!

If I could get in there..

if you have to let it go

2007-09-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

I was just randomly thinking about stuff.
And i realise now how awesome life has been since coming to NJC. Despite all those sad moments, angry moments, those were still the best times in my short, fleeting life. I love 06ip03 and I never will exchange that for anything else in the world.

The notebook

2007-09-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

THE NOTEBOOK WAS AN AWESOME SHOW I LOVED IT I LOVED IT.

Anyway nothing much this week. Though chinese prelim results were disappointing, and I don't think bio quiz went all that well! But since its over and done with, I shall now move on to physics assignment. Great would be the last word anyone would use to describe my progress.

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

divided

2007-09-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

ALright so far the week's been great. And not so, depending on which angle one looks at it. I read a great many AWESOME books and watched some cool movies, slacked alot..but I feel really guilty for not studying!

Oh well. Welcome back, school!]

Oh oh everyone has to read Horus Heresy it is the most awesome series ever, I am completely hooked. And I have facebook, so lets battle it out manz!

good morning vietnam!

2007-09-02T06:20:00.000-07:00

I just watched this amazing show, "Good morning Vietnam." Its really hilariously funny, but at the same time intellectually stimulating and deeply moving. It was so awesome :D

Anyway today was church anniversary, and needless to say it was extremely enjoyable and all the little girls were clamouring for my attention (for once) hahaha and they awarded me a title "best babysitter", I feel extremely honoured.
But okay enough of that, service was really good, and the food almost as good! The chocolate eclairs were heaven (I ate four) and the tofu was soft.
HAHAHA now which dodo didnt know that. But well the food was good. If you've been to arthi farthi's birthday bash you will know exactly what i mean.
Same caterer, duh-uh.

Yeah anyway then we all went ta play lan and our group of six ballooned to like, 16. Ain't it amazing? All the youths went to play hahahaha lan has such influence. My dear sister topped frag for a few games and so did my brother and a few others while i languished at the bottom of the list so that no one else had to feel the hurt of being the worst.
HAHA just kidding I pwnzxzxz everyone in AWP oright. And iceworld too haha just extra info for all those who know what im talking about.

Hmm anyway it kinda gets frustrating sometimes to not get what you want, especially when you've put in so much effort for it. And you thought you'd get something out of it but in the end the "something" actually becomes "nothing" and you wonder why you actually spent all of your time trying to get it. Cause, it wasn't that fantastic anyway. But i think I kind of need to come to terms with that fact that its not fantastic so that there'll be no imperative to still want to have it.

Okay im quite woozy right now, goodnight world!

2007-09-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

I must blog about the unfairness of it all.
I MUST.

See this guy?

HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE TROY IN HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL.
But his contract with nickelodeon didnt allow him.
Where is the justice in the world?? Sorry manz, matthew beats zac hands down.

far away

2007-09-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

Hello world.

I'm still currently encased in a bubble of euphoria because I just watched Under the Tuscan Sun.
Fine laugh at me because i'm THAT slow in catching good shows, but i must say this: IT WAS AN AWESOME TERRIFC WONDERFUL "I FEEL REALLY GOOD" show.
Seriously. Especially if you're someone who love cliched happy endings.[like me]I mean, that was like one of the best shows i've watched so far. It totally rates like second, after my favourite, Notting Hill.
Even chick flicks couldn't beat those two.

Okay so anyway, missed teachers day yesterday because of the flu and cough.Limmy said it was quite fun though, and I believe her. Shoots. Oh well!Did exit clearance for IBN too, I feel quite sad ): I really miss that place. Oh, and there was another show which i watched too, A Walk in the Clouds, with keanu reeves as the lead. HE WAS SO GOOD LOOKING there! :D

Anyway my brother came up with some game afterwards to entertain ourselves. We turned off all the lights in our house, wore sunglasses, and started to PLAY TAG. Can you believe it? It was great fun, even though my team kept losing and each round lasted for like one minute because everyone got caught so easily. The sunglasses made it REALLY dark, and it was so bad that when i bumped into the washing machine I screamed.
No one took very kindly to that because immediately caleb went SHHHHHH.

hmmpfh!

Oright so thats about it for the moment, tomorrow is shuu's party and church anniversary, yeah manz.

prove that I can be moved by you

2007-08-21T02:24:00.000-07:00

HELLOOZ IM BACK TO TERRORIZE PEOPLE.

Nahh just kidding. I happen to have alot of free time on my hands right now! And that means lots of time to search google images for...

HAHAHA he is quite cute isn't he? My mom took a glance and immediately exclaimed: "Is that a girl?!"
Killerjoy.
Okay anyway back to more important stuff like how gwen grace jon eug and I froze in the library today doing work. I was doing my chinese test while the others were doing homework! Gwen claimed she sacrificed her comfort to endure the cold for me. What nonsense.
Oh oh and today was not bad as far as tuesdays go ( I mean, double periods of LANGUAGE. How vile) yeah! Grace and I made a breakthrough in physics which means completing the first question out of like four. We are such brilliant accomplishers haha one question in four days, we're on our way to becoming physicists!
OH OH there's this awesome song by lifehouse-First love. It is beautiful you might want to go listen to it and yes i need to start dancing soon i can feel the fats accumulating.

SEEYA SATURDAY, AVRIL!

carved on sand

2007-07-24T06:59:00.001-07:00

We got back our gpas today and mine wasn't the least bit surprising.
Okay so nevermind, and headed for IBN! Haha i miss the place im so glad i went back today.
It was bustling with life.
HAHA okay fine so that wasn't too descriptive, but it was good to see my mentor again and make milo dinosaurs with roderica! Hopefully I'll be going back tomorrow again.

There certainly is nothing else new. But I do realise that I'm losing something so fast, something that I took a long time to get a grip upon, and even worse, I can't do anything about it.

don't let your head rule your heart

2007-07-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

Today, I feel very contented.
There was church, and then Cheryl's band concert. And even though i've just lost my aeromedical report because I accidentally deleted it, I still feel...peaceful. And really happy even though nothing extraordinary has happened.

I'm really grateful for all the wonderful friends God has blessed me with. Cheryl, Arthi, Gwen, and a few more others that make life more bearable, and undoubtedly more fun.

Okay enough reminiscing! Tomorrow we might get our gpa back, so I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that I get at least a decent grade, although I don't think I will.

Oh well I'm too happy to care. Okay goodbye world.

ahoy there!

2007-07-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really weird. Many "extraordinary" stuff happening...
haha oh well i wouldnt be too bothered if i were myself.

Today was racial harmony day/ community service day. Didn't do much, just slacked around twisting balloons for young kids and basically running errands for people in a sea-green qipao. Or was it cheongsam?
Well lets not get into formalities. The event was alright i guess, but nothing to shout about! Had lunch, slacked somemore till 3.30. Dance elections was pretty okay i guess. Since I was the only ip2 not running, other than avril who is already in exco, I just sat by myself. Oh what a lonely existence. HAHA. Finally we have our 2007/2008 exco committee!
I curently have no comments, excep heartiest congratulations to reg and huiting, because you two surely desrve being in exco.

There's nothing much else, I think my life is comparable to a dead fish. Oh fun, where art thou?

unremarkable

2007-07-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

I realise now that I'm not the kind of person that is able to walk into someone else's life, and leave an indelible footprint. In other words, to be able to have the person to remember you.
I guess i'm quite unremarkable, in that sense. If people could describe me in one word, most of them can hardly go further than the word nice. And well, its nice to be "nice", but really, sometimes I want to be more that just being known as "nice". I guess this is probably why i made that anal remark
"I don't want to be responsible, I want to be funny"
in OBML. Because fun people are able to stay in people's memories. I mean, memorable times are often characterized with humor, laughter, friendship...Often when people bring up memories its always about something funny. Few people remember moments where they are shouted at to clear their mess, or to do this, do that. And thats what I do. In my quest to fufil my "responsible" character, I always have to push other people to do necessary things which they otherwise might not have done. So being memorable? Nah.
Well, I guess I'm just not that kind of person. To be unfailing humourous, or to simply be charismatic. I'm just a wallflower, and I guess that saddens me because well, what's life if you can't make an impact on other people's life?

Okay enough emo-ing. Tomorrow results are coming back in, so if I dont blog for the next few days, it probably means I'm grounded.

AVRIL <3

2007-07-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

Hahaha gosh I'M BACK.
I bet you all missed me!
Alright so that was my ego talking, but well its been a long and yet short ten days...
I'm already missing OBML base camp! And the instructors, and the stupid moments, and the tiring moments, and the fun moments, the cooking moments, the "i'm scared of leeches/fire/crickets/weird army guys" moments...
I miss many things about OBML. I'm not going to go into detail about OBML because if not I might just as well spend tomorrow typing out every single second of it. But it was awfully fun, and I really really would love to go back.
Oh a different note, I MISSED AVRIL.
So caught up with her today and I had loads of fun, and hopefully SO DID YOU AVRIL CHEONG SZE WEI.
Watched Harry Potter, gossiped alot, grumbled alot, ate alot..I discoverd alot of interesting things! Oh and Harry Potter was good. Considering I didnt watch the other three.
Anyways, i'm so glad that she's around now. I guess the phrase "absence makes the heart grow fonder" can be a little cliche, but trust me, truer words have never been spoken

About eating, I ate the weight of an elephant the past two days. I just simply chowed down everything in my path. That includes
-cinammon pretzel
-famous amos no nut cookies
-St louis ribs
-stacks and stacks of brownies heaped with chocolate fudge
-sushi
-MORE sushi

HAHAHA I feel like a pig. And I am so putting on the weight that I just lost climbing Mt. Bubu.

I smsed my mentor too, to get him to ready himself for my return. I really miss my mentor and IBN! I am quite beside myself at the fact that I'm going back! I really cannot wait.
Finally, to cheryl arthi and gwen, I don't think words can express how grateful I am to you guys for putting up with me and my nonsense.I really love you all!

do you know how it feels like

2007-07-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

Liking someone can be very sweet,
but sometimes the experience morphs you into a more bitter, upset person when you know the object of your affection has absolutely zilch, zero interest in you.
Hopefully im not the latter!

TOMORROW IS D-DAY. Or rather, the start of D-Week. Feelings of apprehension and trepidation are currently coursing through me, because sigh, im just afraid of having to suffer i guess.
But isnt that what OBS is for? to put you out of your comfort zone, to drive you to your limits, to show you that life isnt all about topshop and cliques?
So well, i shall look to tomorrow and the next nine days with wide open eyes. (AND alot of plasters to cover leech bites)

Well anyway i must thank Daniel and Cheryl for bearing the brunt of my OBS worries, especially about how I hate leeches and how i dont feel like going. It really takes somebody different, to be able to comfort (me especially because i can be quite thick-headed HAHA).

I will be back on wednesday next week, at around six pm! Till then, MISS ME.
<3

dunked into exams

2007-06-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

As the title states, I am in the midst of exams oh hooray. I never thought that i would have the crass to actualy blog during exams, when one is supposed to be studying one's life off to pass, but here am I!

So the start of today went pretty well, talking to gwen and arthi, doing the normal rountine. But as the day passed, and you get to redefine people's characters, how they have changed over the month..
lets just say most people stayed the same.

And that was when I realised that one can't run away from life's problems. I naively thought that things would take on a pristine shine for us, where we could start on a clean new slate. But now I head back, and things are..well. The same. And I can't change anything else, except change my own viewpoint. And i guess I will do that, because really, there is no point bemoaning over how other people can't change when you yourself refuse to practice what you preach.

But anyway, LA was screwed. Geog was screwed. I really panicked before the exams, but lets just say, it was all my fault for not putting in effort to study. I could have, but instead I spent my time doing other things, living for the moment instead of for the future (which is duh, exams).

I guess i only can just mug away for end of years to make up for coming bad results.

Highlight of the day: MEETING AVRIL!

maybe one day, it'll be better

2007-06-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

I need to blog this in a rush, because my cousin wants to use the com to play club penguin. Sorta like a mini neopets. How i miss the innocence of young age.

I am entirely screwed for ass week, and its ironical that im not getting my butt off to study. But somehow, I dont feel the importance of the coming exams. I think i need to see a grade gpa of 2.0 before my guilt conscience starts kicking in and pushing me to work hard.

But i really dont want to disappoint the people who have placed high hopes in me of achieving results. Good ones, at that.
Pahhh.
Isn't this such a dilemma.
Okay actually it doesnt count, because there is one choice that i obviously should pick, and that is TO STUDY.
Actually, it bears no point to keep reminding myself that I am not studying.

I'm feeling quite alone right now, because I haven't talked to my friends in ages and what not. And I miss IBN very much, even though I really detested going there for the first few days. Now it feels like something is missing when I dont go to the research institute. I am quite looking forward to going back this coming July, and hopefully next year.
Haha I know its quite absurd to be planning your june holidays for next year, but yes, I have made up my mind, I would really like to go back to IBN then.

Okay gotta rush.

[edit]

I'm feeling pretty disappointed right now, with certain events that have cumulated into such that has caused me to feel that way. I don't know why it had to turn out this way, but I guess I knew the ending even before I started. Being a veteran of these kinds of situations, and knowing how it would turn out, I still went ahead, resulting in this predictable ending where feelings of disappointment and frustration meet.
Of course, there's no one else to blame but myself.

knowing the lock has changed

2007-06-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

I AM IN LOVE WITH A SONG.
Gosh its a beautiful song, and on a sorrier note, holidays are alomst over and i feel the heaviness of exams. URGH. Today was my last day at IBN (at least for the next three weeks) and awww im gonna miss my mentor he's super funny luh! And I'm gonna miss the lab..Well. Im going to miss everything.
:[
Im going to die for midyears. I can feel it in my bones.

Arrgh i have something to say but its not forming into coherent sentences so nevermind.

Anyway, i need to find time to get my haircut, remove nail polish, do some silly facial, get fit in time for lumut and STUDY.
WHERE IS TIME. I desperately need it.

'cause I adore you

2007-06-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

Today was extremely good because I had a few surprises. Pleasant ones at that. GEOG WAS AWESOME shuus and I are rather happy with what we've accomplished and THANKS NUSH for the good advice <3 ya.
Then Father's day dinner with dad, and the food was awesome. The company, not so. Probably because my siblings were once again lost in their own world, and they were just being quiet and talking between themselves so I felt quite left out. I rather want to be an only child sometimes. Sometimes.
Oh well! Headed over to river island for a while and my dad got me a nice dress haha THANKS DAD. Yep and headed back home to fill up ssef forms.

PLEASE PRINT. PLEASE.

AHHHH if it doesnt print I will murder. Haha okay maybe I wont. Okay i meant i really wont but I need the ssef forms to print why oh why must the printer run out of ink the moment I need it!

Hmmm oh today heading back home in the car, my sister said something really funny! She said to my mom
" Mommy, why don't you buy clothes from the pee-tight section?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i almost died laughing. For those of you who dont go shopping very much, my sister actually meant the petite section.
Nothing like laughs to brighten up the day. Or rather, whats left of it.

Church today was okay. I was super sleepy. Or rather...
Okay nevermind.

Bye bye world.

yodeling goobies

2007-06-15T09:55:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA i am quite high now although its one in the morning!
Just watched The Incredibles and it was goooood. And it was funny too, I really love disney movies.
Alright I sound like a little kid don't I.

:D today's attachment was fine BUT. BUT. I had this raging headache so I felt..blah. And we had some toxic gas alarm and everyone had to evacuate! AHHHH I had to leave my cells, I was so afraid that they would die or something but my cells were fine.
Did OT again though, thanks to the silly alarm. Apparently, the toxic gas that leaked was hydrogen bromide. Is that toxic?

ALRIGHT tomorrow is movietime, hopefully F4 with the SS will be good. And, and, I really miss doing normal things that normal people do during their school holidays and sighhh holidays are going to end soon.
Blehh.

(Hmm TWO MORE DAYS!)

overrated

2007-06-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

yes, YOU are.
Your behaviour and actions disgust me. I marvel at the change that transformed you, so fast, so quickly. It wasn't too long ago that you abhorred people that you are right now, and that is the biggest irony of all.
I don't know whether to pity you, to help you, or to just sit at the side and watch you fade away into the temptations of the world.

Okay that was deep thinking coming from me! HAHA nevermind I shall put that matter at the back of my mind. Today was extremely fun, because our mentors are so funny. HAHA okay so that was stupid of me to say, but nevermind. I did another new experiment today, and it was pretty good so PHEW. I almost thought the experiment would fail!

Yadayada had dinner with Aunt Ginger's family, and we had KOREAN FOOD.
BE JEALOUS.
It was awesome, I think I'll be full till next year. Haha so that was an exaggeration but honestly, I ate a bucketful.
Now I feel fat. Oh poo.
Yeah just hung around abit, and got home.
My schedule for these two weeks are packed! Crab dinners, ice skating, shopping, Father's day dinners..oh ho i am so looking forward to it! But I really hope that there'll be sometime leftover to ya know, study.
I NEED TO.

Hmm he'sleft for camp again.
:[

Oh but whatever i'm still in a cheery mood, albeit fondly missing 03 and dance pals many many <3

Two more days

2007-06-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY!
I mean, not that its friday, rather I can't wait for friday to come because it means we get dismissed at FIVE THIRTY instead of SIX.
Stop scorning the fact that its only half an hour, it really means alot when you work from 8.30 to 6.

ANYWAY I HAVE AWESOME NEWS.
I am going to hongkong! Hahaha in august, during national day(and beyond). My mom has decided that we all (as in her and I) are badly in need of shopping therapy so THERE. Ahahaha I can't wait this is so exciting.
I'm looking forward to LUMUT too!

I attended church service today, and it was very good! I know last time I used to be really tired and bored during service, because somehow I couldn't interest myself in God's Word. I guess, maybe all these was because I just couldn't care less about what God said. But now, after these few weeks of awesome change, its been getting better. And not just the services part, but in every aspect of my life as well. Learning how to trust Him, and to always know that He will do things IN HIS TIME.
So yeah, God indeed knows how to take care of you,
if you just trust Him.

Hmmm. Oh, today I had lunch with my mom, and it was okay. The corn sushi was good (as always!) but the main course, which was some curry thingajimee with rice was not to my taste. Okay i must make a conscious effort not to order that again.
I think im eating too much nowadays! And I'm not even excercising!
Must cut down on food intake.

Heehee alright time to be productive and stop lazing my butt off.
Toodles!

Lumut

2007-06-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

Im currently, okay fine I was checking my packing list and I realised that I dont have much of the stuff on the list! Unless its the usual like toothpaste, towels, shirts etc.
Otherwise..i have zilch.
I must remember to get cool shoes for the water activities(like the one arthi had for obs last year.) Must get.

Okay so that was just ramblings. Today, as i predicted, was a really rush day. Did overtime again, but it was pretty fun because I got to use the automated pipetter and the wash machine! Their usefulness, can never be underestimated.
Hmm and while i was using the pipette and doing the coats and stuff, BT was talking about how he once made a student under him do everything manually! I ALMOST FAINTED. You know what that means?
It means filling up 200++ wells, for 3 microplates.
Then, removing the solution in each well.
Then, adding in other solution.
Then, removing.
Adding.
Removing.
Adding.
Removing.

I would have died had i been in her position! But Mr. BT rarely gets angry at people, so if that girl had angered him until he made her do the abovementioned, she must have done something really..bad(for lack of a better word)over a prolonged period of time.
Hooboy I feel quite relieved that its not me doing it manually.

I also did the Assay for fluorescence, which was okay, because i had the company of roderica half the time and she was talking about nothing(which actually means everything) for the whole time.
(:

Hmm okay i guess there's nothing much.
Nothing ispirational, astounding, or fascinating.
OH WAIT.
Apparently, someone got ** million for selling a patent!
ALRIGHT IBN, bring it on!
(im gonna make big bucks and be rich HAHHA okay in my dreams)

dance friends

2007-06-10T07:16:00.000-07:00

are the <3.
Especially avril and chuyun because they rocksocks and thats the truth. I miss them very bery pery dery much.

Alright today was pretty much fun! Services in the morning was good, and my mom's a total sucker for babies. My future motherhood is in safe hands. Okay why am I talking about that now?
Then lunch with most of the church youth, it was awesome because the guys just refused to stop sputtering nonsense. Almost choked on the hot spicy beef that I was eating. THey were on the topic of burping.
:D

Afternnon service also flew by, but it was awesome.
Came back, and finished up research plan( finally FINALLY FINALLY!) and my references too. Nice dinner with my mom and my sister, because we were doing girl stuff like gossiping. My mom can be cool at times yknow. But we met this stupid brat, and he was well, bratty.
My sister was crossing the traffic junction, and then this boy was behind. Then, for i have no idea what reason, he pushed forward and tried to get past my sister. However, at that very point, there was the traffic light pole on his left, and my sister's elbow to the right. And he was awfully fat so of course he got stuck, and my sister's elbow accidentally plowed into his nose.
"WAHHHHHH MOMMY THAT STUPID GIRL HIT MY NOSE FOR NOTHING!"
I was like. WHAT.EVER. It was totally his problem and yet he still dared to put the blame on my sister? I couldnt resist saying "I hate bratty boys".
Really loudly.
And that got him to shut up thankfully.

I really hate bratty kids like abovementioned fat boy. Why their parents spoil them so much its a total mystery.

Tomorrow is IBN! I don't mind, because we're doing our research plan tommorrow and it will be a rush so time will flyy. Hmm otherwise there's really nothing much else so toodles.

sweet sixteen

2007-06-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

I was just watching MTV's my super sweet sixteen and there's memories of my own! Hahaha awesome memories to be exact.

Well, I got my pedicure done today, and now my toenails are sparkly purply-blue if there ever was such a colour. ITS FAB. I really love it. I really wanted to do my nails too though, but I doubt IBN would allow it, seeing that nail polish can contaminate cell cultures.
The ruining of cell cultures is like the world collapsing. Especially if you're rushing out a project and you have absolutely no time to twiddle your thumbs and wait for the cells to grow. Proliferate. Whatever.

Hmmm he's gone for his camp thingajimee.

Okay that was really random, as usual. Urgh I think i really have a problem called procrastinating. I procrastinate ALOT. Like, seriously, ALOT. I don't hand up my work on time, I don't complete assignments...I really need to get going on everything's that been piling up. I haven't even started my research assignment and Mr. BT is expecting it!

I think procrastinating is like an ostrich burying its head into the sand! Its like, it pretends that the animals in its surrounding don't really exist, but well, they do.
Yeah. And when you procrastinate, you just pretend that homework doesn't exist, but really, ITS THERE.
And worst of all, its not going to disappear.
AHHHHHH.

Anyway on a lighter note, I've struck off some things on my shopping list(and if you dont know that means i've got some of them already)and that makes for a happy me. I really need to go shopping to get summer clothing, and take full advantage of the gss! Trust me, IBN is a poor substitute for shopping.
No i do LIKE IBN, but i prefer shopping.

Who wants to go shop with me! Drop a comment and do it quickly, holidays are half gone already.
<3

I wish i knew

2007-06-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

I'm not very optimistic about a certain aspect of my life, but i guess now its not really important to be worrying about that!

Today was a really rush day at the institute. Had to complete the data test and make more fibers, but I completed it all in good time. I love the cell culture room because its awfully quiet, and quiet's good.
C'mon, I'm NOT that noisy.
Really, i happen to be an introvert.
HONESTLY.

I feel quite placcid now, in preparation for the day tomorrow where I will have to rush out my research plan for SSEF. I really do not want to take part in SSEF, and I don't see why we have to be forced to. I hate paperwork for ssef, its so annoying. Urgh. I really hope my spending all my holidays at the institute will result in some good, or rather alot of good, because I sacrificed so much for this.
And I will have to go back to the institute in November. I am very wary about that.

Okay i'm not in a very good mood right now. Lets just say, he leaving for his camp tmrw is NOT HELPING!

But nevermind, that means more concentration on research plan, and tinkering around with my mp3 player! Hmmm. Arrgh i'm still not feeling happy. I need something to cheer me up. Something more than a good piece of tim tam.
(Which I already had though :D)

pink clouds

2007-06-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

I wonder if you all know the pink cloud joke.
Anyway, i have a pink mp3 from sony now! My mom looked at it for five minutes, asked some salesman a few questions about it, and said "I'll get the pink one". I DIED ON THE SPOT.Oh my goodness it was such a shellshock for me because my mom usually deliberates for MONTHS before she gets me anything.

Then we went to paragon, and got my wallet! :D I am quite cheery right now. Thank you mom.

Alright, today's research was okay. Assigned to make collagen fibers and RGD ones, and it was pretty straightforward. I STUPIDLY DID MANUAL COUNTING in microsoft excel when the computer could have done it for me. I feel so..dumb.
HAHAHA then headed to the pantry, drank milo, and studied electrochem. I tried to, at least. Whether i suceeded is a completely, entirely different matter.

Hmm tomorrow's the cycling trip with the church youth, but i can't go because IBN won't allow me to. Maybe I'll just go for dinner, but East Coast is so far, the distance is very off-putting.
(I've got my mp3 with me to go the distance though, tralalalala :D)

I really wish I could go though. There, another expensive opportunity cost for the route that I have chosen to take.

Splurge

2007-06-06T08:11:00.000-07:00

I just realised that my mom has been spending barrels and barrels of money on really, really expensive stuff this GSS.

Branded handbags, branded shoes, branded clothes, more shoes, more clothes. Its scary! She never spent that much before in one month..but hell yeah she can afford it, so why not?
But her spendthriftness has not been extended to me, I still havent recieved anything from her. Not YET. I'm trying to stay optimistic about it though! Hopefully when we go shopping together tomorrow she'll be nice enough to pay for some of my shopping goodies.
But thats tomorrow.

Today I attended church service, and it was not bad at all! Thank you God for such an awesome service. My jeans were really making me feel all hot and itchy though, so it was pretty uncomfortable. I met amber and her friend, and they are not very pretty. I mean yeah, they are nice to look at, but i wouldn't give them a second look on the streets if i happened to be passing by.
Amber's quite the bimbo, so i think i might have found my life partner.
HAHAHA alright so i was kidding.

He's coming back tomorrow oh the world makes sense again.
HAHAHA OKAY i am not that crazy over him. That was a total exaggeration.

Hmm okay so the abovementioned was rather overrated, and entirely uneccessary. Today's work was pretty much good, I did cells again. Just transferring mediums here there and everywhere, and did some fluorescence thingajimee that I need gwen to explain to me!
(LEDS make use of fluorescence :D)
Otherwise I just lazed around at the pantry, daydreamed, downed lots of milo, studied phyiscs, talked to jiayi and laughed with my mentor.
JIAYI IS FROM CHINA!
Hahaha i was entirely astounded. He didnt talk or look like one. But when he speaks chinese he does have a faint chinese accent but otherwise, his cover is intact. Tomorrow Mr. BT won't be around, so I'll get to do fibers and calculate data and results. Not bad for what will be a relaxing day ahead so wahhhhhhooooo.

Alright there's really nothing else to blog about but God really has been with me throughout all that I've gone through, and it has been very reassuring. AVRIL CHEONG SZE WEI you mustn't worry nor care about such childish behaviour, just give your best and I LOVE YOU.

you're the one I need tonight

2007-06-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

Another day at attachment; time passed really slowly from 9am-12pm. Even jiayi and roderica agreed! Anyway lunch was a pleasant affair and its really not neccessary to say this but lunch was at holland v.
We get free rides to holland v and back from biopolis!
(abovementioned sentence is especially for avril)
Yes so ye all, be jealous.

HAHAHA after lunch i was rushing to finish making all the fibers, and it was so stressful that instead of taking my usual two hours for 4 sets of fibers, I spent THREE hours on THREE fibers. You do the math.
But in the end the task was completed GO ME. Went to work, or rather look at my mentor work on primary cells. I stood around, watched, got fascinated by lots of stuff, and stayed in the cell culture lab till 7! Talk about overtime. But it was worth it, because it was pretty enjoyable.

Sometimes whilst doing research I get very frustrated. I spend eight hours in the lab, and since my workplace is closest to the window, i tend to just look at the scenery whilst waiting for my experiments. And of course I have a tendency to daydream, and i often wonder what I would be doing outside if I weren't in the lab. Would I be shopping? Going out with my church mates? Suntanning with pals? Atte
nding church camp? Studying?

I realise that the opportunity cost for attending this research attachment is so..expensive. I really want to do everything mentioned above, and more. Sometimes I wonder, is this attachment really worth it? But I guess, God has chosen for me this path, and only He knows the end of the path I take. Is this a test, to mould me into someone who will trust Him more, and put my future into his hands wholly without doubting His will for me?

Yeah. It probably is.

Okay anyway, on a lighter note, sam's girlfriend is coming to Singapore today, and Aunt Ginger's niece Amber, is here too! With one of her girlfriends...many many pretty girls shall be awash in church this sunday. Am currently anticipating that day!
He's not going to be there though :[

HAHAHA whatever im immersing myself in such childish behaviour, I can totally imagine cheryl repriminding me like some momma. HAHA i really miss my friends, LUMUT HERE WE COME! I asked jessica about lumut, and she says to get rid of leeches, we need a concentrated solution. So therefore i've decided that i will mix a ton of salt into water, put it into a spray bottle, and bring it to lumut to get rid of leeches!
Apparently, when you spray concentrated solution on them, their bodies absorb the excess concentration in accordance to the principle of osmosis. They shrivel up and the blood inside them (which happens to be YOUR BLOOD should you get bitten) will then break through the skin of the leeches, and burst out.

I am REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to lumut now.
I worry for muhammad though, he screamed and ran out of the class once when a bee flew in. Wonder how he will find the leeches?

HAHAHA. I feel quite light-hearted now.
Whoopee-do!

National Geographic

2007-06-04T04:52:00.000-07:00

I'm currently watching National Geographic. Its not like as if I've not been immersing myself in science enough! There's attachment for 9 hours, and I come back and watch NG.
But the show on now is cool.

Someone's off in Thailand right now, and the effects of absence is making itself known. Now now stop insinuating!

I am currently missing alot of friendship in my life. I really hope that lumut will be an awesome bonding period because otherwise, I don't know what I'll do without them.
You know who you are!
<3

comtemplating

2007-06-03T08:34:00.000-07:00

Yes, from the title, i am currently contemplating turning lesbian with avril, because in all honesty, guys are wayy more difficult to catch and to love.

Okay so no im NOT les, and am straight thankyouverymuch. In fact im kinda interested in someone. Who so happens to be a guy and that lends evidence to me being straight.
Yes i really am.

But its just so difficult to talk to him. Or guys in general. Its like, all the effort i put in, and none is reciprocrated. It gets tiring after a while, and anyway all my efforts are in futility because for my efforts to be fruitful there at least needs to be some interest on his part, and it is not happening as far as I know.

Its pretty tiring. Its way more easier to love a girl, which brings me back to the start of this post!
Alright frustrations vented.

i lubb euu ah-vril! (teehee)

Its over

2007-06-03T01:33:00.001-07:00

I have been trying to change my blogskin to another nicer skin, but no one is cooperating.
Or maybe i'm just picky.

The day isn't over yet, but i shall blog anyway, in anticipation of the fact that i will be most unlikely to get onto the computer later as i will have to sleep early to wake up at the most unearthly time of 7 tomorrow!
Yes, IBN calls.

Today was church, church and more church with VBS thrown in!
VBS is the vacation bible school for kids 6yrs-12yrs old, and they are so adorable. In addition, their classes are really fun i might just join them myselves.
So i was kidding.

Services were really good, not to mention that i stayed awake for all. I feel extremely accomplished at that. I lost my bet though, but hey, I learnt something out of the whole thing.
(yes, cliche i know.)
I don't think life is only about getting what you want, achieving goals that you set for yourself. Sometimes, its just more memorable and more significant to live in the moment, without having to spend that moment worrying about how you are going to get this, get that. And I guess i've been having too many moments lately where I just keep worrying about how this thing is going to work out, how i will accomplish that. Its more beautiful to just..live.

Okay maybe that was just an old foogey rambling :D
But it does make sense to me and thats all that matters.
And i must make myself stop chasing after this. With God's strength, I will.

may I fall in love with Him, all over again.

My life in one month

2007-06-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Alright, I shall attempt to blog out my whole holiday so that everyone has the pleasure of knowing what actually goes on in my life.

I was kidding about the pleasure part.

So yes, life has been a real tough ride lately, especially with YRP in IBN! I always thought research was all glamourous and no frustrating moments,
but i'm naive.
I realised that really, research is all about the grit and grime and nothing glamourous. I've been making fibers for the past week and will continue to do so for the next week. Its awfully repetitive, but thankfully it keeps me busy. And I enjoy making fibers..
so we shall see.

Many other hectic days have come and gone, and church camp has been especially memorable. The services have certainly been a blessing, and i've actually upped many people in the camp from my accquaintance list to my friends list.
No no dont get me wrong, its not that my friends list is prestigious. Rather, I just didnt know them too well before the church camp.
So t'was a happy ending.

MI ESSAY.
The bane of approximately 150 student's lives from the 17th of may to the 31st of may.
The bane of my life too!
Thankfully, I completed it (hooboy) and am currently indulging in the feeling over-the-moon-ness if you get what I mean. Of course, there is LA essay due on monday so I wonder how long my current feelings will last.
Not very long i think.

Shopping at Miss Selfridge was good, I bought a pair of short shorts. Very outrageous, especially the price. But honestly, can you resist a good buy? I cant. :D

Anyway, I should be going off to catch up with some sleep. With days at IBN starting at 8.30am and ending at 6.00pm, I need all the sleep I can get. Plus, I need to stay awake for service(s) tmrw, and I've got a bet to win!

tata.