I need to blog this in a rush, because my cousin wants to use the com to play club penguin. Sorta like a mini neopets. How i miss the innocence of young age.

I am entirely screwed for ass week, and its ironical that im not getting my butt off to study. But somehow, I dont feel the importance of the coming exams. I think i need to see a grade gpa of 2.0 before my guilt conscience starts kicking in and pushing me to work hard.

But i really dont want to disappoint the people who have placed high hopes in me of achieving results. Good ones, at that.
Pahhh.
Isn't this such a dilemma.
Okay actually it doesnt count, because there is one choice that i obviously should pick, and that is TO STUDY.
Actually, it bears no point to keep reminding myself that I am not studying.

I'm feeling quite alone right now, because I haven't talked to my friends in ages and what not. And I miss IBN very much, even though I really detested going there for the first few days. Now it feels like something is missing when I dont go to the research institute. I am quite looking forward to going back this coming July, and hopefully next year.
Haha I know its quite absurd to be planning your june holidays for next year, but yes, I have made up my mind, I would really like to go back to IBN then.

Okay gotta rush.

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I'm feeling pretty disappointed right now, with certain events that have cumulated into such that has caused me to feel that way. I don't know why it had to turn out this way, but I guess I knew the ending even before I started. Being a veteran of these kinds of situations, and knowing how it would turn out, I still went ahead, resulting in this predictable ending where feelings of disappointment and frustration meet.
Of course, there's no one else to blame but myself.